Yah okay, I didn't stay at home the whole day and rot as planned. Around 4 this afternoon, I met up with Khai and Syerzan and ended up talking for hours. Fatimah joined us much later. Wow, it's really nice to let people know that I'm still their friend, not arrogant and still alive. Ahaa. Thanks Syerz and Khai!
Yeah yeah, working tomorrow. I'm gonna heed what Syerzan said and go to work saying, "YAY, I’M WORKING AND IT WILL BE A NICE DAY." Yah fine, I'll definitely try. It's all about the mindset.
Still, I'm teeny weeny bit excited of going to work tomorrow. It will be Fatimah's first day as well! Woohoo, I somehow feel so much better about going to work already.
I have to sort out what to wear tomorrow (disadvantage of working without uniform -.-), read at least another chapter of Spanking Shakespeare (yes okay Amirah, I've only started reading it. It's funny!) and go to sleep!
Goodbye, goodnight!
It's extremely weird that I don't spend much time on the Net anymore. It's like, if I have good books on hand, who cares what's going on in the cyber world? I'm more interested in knowing the ending of a book than the ending of a Taiwanese/Korean/Japanese/US drama series (wow, mark this). I go on the Net, chop chop, Facebook, chop chop, update this blog, chop chop, online for a while. I don't even check my Farmville. I kinda miss hogging on my laptop for hours though. Just that, once I'm on Internet, I seriously don't know where to go. And my brother definitely benefits from this. -.-
I just got back from Idy's band set at Cathay Cineleisure. Hi-5 Stereo was awesome. Companies were awesome too. Been quite some time since I really step into town and met friends like Idy, Fareez and Amalu.
Right, I suddenly miss Fafa. Hey Fafa, if you see this, call me anytime tomorrow yeah? :)
Working on Monday and there goes my week. Tomorrow, I feel like staying at home the whole day and rot my hearts out with my books.
Saturday, 14 November 2009
First day of work wasn't that awesome.
My supervisor's great and all. None of my colleagues is of the same age as me neither of them are around my age. Most of them are way much older and matured. As such, I didn't really converse with any of colleagues except for Ka Yin who trained me. Even she didn't talked much with me except if it's related to the job only. Well, I guess, on Monday, with Fatimah around, things will be better.
Half-way through the job, I seriously felt like quitting. However, I have no exact reasons to quit actually. My supervisor, BK, is nice and all and even though my colleagues doesn't seems amiable, they don't really give me much trouble so why bother right? I'm just irritated that I have to take some shit from some patients. Don't they understand that I'm just doing my damn job. However, I interviewed one Caucasian yesterday and seriously, he's the best patient with manners. Plus this particular uncle who seems to try to answer every one of my question seriously. Even though he's struggling with English, he really tried. I was really really glad. Thanks to this uncle, I ended my day job with a good note.
With the pay and good treatment I received at my workplace, I seriously don't have any reasons to quit. I mean, which job is easy right? Every job bounds to have some difficulties. I just have to persevere through it. BK's right. He did warned me and Fatimah that this job is no different from studying. Thank God only 5 hours. You'll not be tired physically but mentally. Yesterday was a proof of it. After dinner with Nabilah over at town, I was having a massive bout of headache. Reminds me of the time I got home from night-study. Ah, first day of work.
Friday, 13 November 2009
I'm freaking working tomorrow, no, make that later, and I can't go to sleep! WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH ME!!!
I shall read my book and die trying to go to sleep. I have to sleep!
Work will be fine. Calm down!
Thursday, 12 November 2009
Hey hello, orange's my favourite colour and I'm grinning from ear-to-ear looking at my new blogskin. I love it.
As you all know, my last paper was yesterday. I was definitely very glad with that fact. However, I still felt a teeny weeny sadness as I can't believe I managed to wheeze my way through the 5 years in Bedok North Sec. Bitter-sweet memories, I guess I'll miss BN in time to come.
Time flies so fast. From school, I'm now into the working life already.
In fact, tomorrow will be my first day of work. I'm quite psyched up for it and really wish nothing will go wrong. Well, even if something do go wrong, I hope it's something that is within my capability and I can handle it smoothly. Now, I'm starting to feel jittery. God, I'm really scared. Haha. Fatimah will be working with me but she's starting on Monday whereas I'm starting tomorrow. I should have chosen to start working on Monday instead.
Hmm... InsyAllah, everything will go well! I'll go to work with a positive attitude!
Also, I can safely say that Allah has been giving me and my friends lots and lots of rezeki. Alhamdulilah. Firstly, Faizah, Balqis, Riah and Fatimah managed to secure a job. As for Nabilah, she's waiting for this particular call tomorrow. I hope Allah bless her with rezeki as well! Secondly, we went for interviews with only a few dollars to our name and with our ez-link card. Thank God, we still managed to scrap through the interviews and all and land a job. I'm really thankful to Him. Alhamdulilah. I'm sure He will make my first day of job go smoothly as well!
For those who are still job-hunting, fret not! The key point is to never give up! I hope He will give ya'll lots and lots of rezeki and landed all of you with a job. Best of luck from yours truly!
Tuesday, 10 November 2009
So, I'm finally here back.
Well, you can't entirely blame me. What's with the O's, checkups and stuff. Plus, the other day, Mama accidentally cracked my laptop's LCD screen and I just collect it from servicing centre this morning. No warranty and it cost Mama a whooping $374. I seriously think it's a waste of a whole lot money.
Today, I also had to go for my physiotherapy. I really regretted going for it. Physiotherapy should teach me some light exercise and make me feel better but it's totally the other way round. Somehow, the exercise must have gone terribly wrong and my back pain is back. Another concluding factor would be the therapist must have pressed my lower back too hard. It's really painful that I called my therapist up asking for help. All he did was he asked me to take my painkillers and rest my back. If the pain aggravates, call him up again and cab my way to A&E. How easy he make it sound. I have my last paper tomorrow and in no way am I going to get myself warded AGAIN. I already missed my Practical and I swear that I'll not allow myself to miss my Science MCQ. I'm seriously a dog if I miss them. Even if the pain aggravates, I’ll bear with it! I surely can.
Another thing that I regret going for physiotherapy is the cost. I really don’t understand how it works but just a mere 15 minutes exercise, physio assessment and consultation, I’m charged close to $90! Even more sick was, I’m required to go for physiotherapy every 2 weeks. Life really revolves around money. I feel really really bad for Mama. I also have to go for another checkup over at KKH because I’m freaking anemic. Why can’t I be healthy!! Although Mama kept saying it’s okay, I know that it’s not okay. Among the 3 siblings, the most money Mama spent on is on me and my medical bills. This is so crazy. After my sec 2 ordeal, I think nothing will ever happen again but barely after 3 years, shit happens again.
Fine fine, I sure whine a lot. Once you’re in my shitty situation, you’ll perfectly understand.
Anyway, on my birthday, I stick my nose in my novel until Kakak asked me and Ewan out to have my birthday dinner. Well, it’s the first time I spent my birthday with my siblings and I was surprised myself that it wasn’t with my friends this time. It was okay. Kakak shopped a lot whilst Ewan and I spent time outside the store. Me reading, he fretting. Not an ideal birthday but I appreciate the time with my siblings.
And yah, thanks for all the birthday wishes. :)
I should tuck in now. Last paper tomorrow, pray for me plenty!
Sunday, 25 October 2009
Just got discharged, missed O'Level Science Practical. Long story.
My sister jokingly said that I'm dying. Mama cussed her inside out and scolded her like never before. It was appaling and funny. And no, I'm not mad about that.
On a second thought, maybe I'm REALLY dying? Hahahaha impossible. I'm so irritating and naughty and have yet to accumulate much good deeds so Allah must not love me enough to take me away. I'll get myself cured and of course, do plenty of good deeds.
Hi Amirah, I'm thinking on the sunny-side up. Hi Akhram, Zulaikha, Gavin, Aliy, Amirah, Farisha, Shafik, Liyana and Paul, Rusyaidi and Bob, thanks for visiting me in the hospital. I appreciate it very, extremely much. Hi Nabilah, Fatimah, Faizah and Peah, thanks a whole lot for coming down to the hospital everyday. Love you people lots. Those who called/messaged, you're not forgotten. Of course, I love Mama a lot too. I've to stop misunderstand her and bear in mind that Mama really do care and love me.
Live life, love yourself!
Tuesday, 22 September 2009
I'm suffering from UTI and the doctor did not treat me seriously. FML.
That's it, I'm going to the Polyclinic tomorrow. The pain is excruciating.
Sunday, 20 September 2009
Well, my room is still messy and dirty. The only thing I've done for my room was wiping the windows and change the curtain. Nothing else. I'll do the rest tomorrow. I swear I'll get up early.
So, before I sleep, I wanna wish everyone Salam Eid Mubarak/Salam Lebaran/Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. For those who I have sinned, offended, annoyed or whatever it is, I'm sorry. Please forgive me. This is from the bottom of my heart. For those who seek for forgiveness, hahaha I've forgiven all of you already.
Oh yeah, thanks for all the Hari Raya messages too although after a while, I got quite irritated by it (hahaha omg, I just apologized but yes, I'm sorry again), I still appreciate every single message sent to me. Some were sweet, funny and very sincere. Thank you very much. :}
For those who are not celebrating Hari Raya, happy holidays! I'm still gonna wish you Selamat Hari Raya. Hahaha cross-culture, yes?
Tomorrow will be a good and enjoyable day. Be happy!
Saturday, 19 September 2009
I woke up with a thumping head and I realized that I was running a temperature. The thumping has reduced greatly but the temperature remain constant, 38.2. I can't believe this.
WHAT. A. LUCK.
I shouldn't be surprised. Whenever I'm having my mens, I'll always fall sick. Fever, flu, cough, you name it. I will also miraculously recover once my mens stop. Weird, I know. So, I reckon, I would most likely to recover on Tues or Wed.
I guess, I'll be celebrating Hari Raya with fever then but it's fine. Sighs, why must fasting month comes to an end so fast? It seems to pass by me like lightning. I could barely feel it.
I hope that my temperature would at least decrease to 37.8 after watching this 10 times. (YAH RIGHT, MY TEMP WOULD BE MORE LIKELY TO INCREASE)
I'm despondent because CD just add in new tatts and expand his ear hole.
Friday, 18 September 2009
One of the greatest faults in us humans is that we stereotyped or label a lot. We see minah/mat, we repulse. We see ahbeng/ahlian, we repulse. We see gays/lesbians, we repulse. We spot an arrogant girl down the street, we repulse. We hear people listening to techno or dancing to it, we repulse. A new trend surfaced, we repulse. Some are even extreme. UGLY PEOPLE, REPULSE. Not that I don't repulse at some of these but I certainly don't get repulsive at ugly people. Not because I'm ugly that I don't repulse on them and hoping that in return, someone would not get repulsed by me but I just don't. I swear that it's okay if you're not pretty but if you have a lovely heart, you win hands down. Right, maybe not in this era but somehow, you win them. I agree that some of them of those repulse-able issues but they are as human as us, no? Don't they deserve all the due respect like how we expect our due respect? Up till this day, I still get repulsive at this and that. Damn it, how can I be so judgmental and shallow? Furthermore, who am I to judge? There's always a reason for everything. I'm sure there's always a reason why some people turn out that way or maybe, that's one of their flaws that we have to overlook. Someday, somehow, I wish to be at a point where I would not be as judgmental as I am now. I think it's really impossible to not repulse at anything but let's us not get repulsive judgmentally and irrationally. Spot someone/something you dislike? Sudah lah, die bukan kakak/abg/pakcik/makcik kau pon, ape kau susah? Come on, they deserve a break as much as we all do. Plus, why must you fill up your meaningful life with hatred? Trust me, it's tiring.
I MUST NOT BE JUDGMENTAL AND STEREOTYPE OTHERS, I'M NOT PERFECT MYSELF. YOU TOO.
Wednesday, 16 September 2009
5 more days!! And yet, yesterday at 4.... Wah, wasted wasted. Heart-pain man.
No use talking about Chemistry and F&N papers because both are freaking difficult and I feel like strangling the teacher who set the papers or maybe, I should first start strangling myself because of not studying much but hey, I did study but not much seems to be digested into my brain. Doing my F&N paper with cramps doesn't help much either. Whatever is it, the results are too obvious.
I'm now left with Maths P1 and MCQ Sci.
Yesterday, the whole family is in a bad mood, including me. Drove me crazy. I guess, everyone's tired, sick and all. I don't blame them. I hope today will be slightly better.
